Can I have your number??

Can I have it? lol

The back of your head is ridiculous!!

Utter stupidity.....

Yes...I know. It's hard to believe that I would do something stupid. Much less two very stupid computer actions in a week.

I had to reformat my new computer AGAIN last night. Last week, I got infected with some trojan/virus/worm thing and I used my trusty Alienware Respawn to fix it. Respawn automatically backs everything up and saves it so that we don't have to deal with saving everything to another drive somewhere. Just peachy, I say!

So I'm back up and running and yesterday I'm doing my weekly preventative maintenance and I'm running a scandisk during the day...my first mistake. I usually run them overnight. I run an errand and get back and realize that it's running really slow and it might not be done by the time I need to DJ. More importantly, I'm just plain jonesing to get online. :-/

So what do I do? I tried to escape and couldn't figure that out, and rather than be patient and let it do it's thing, I did a hard shutdown. Power button and off. And...well....you know the rest. Something got disrupted and I could not boot up. It took me to my trusty Respawn where I assumed...no problem. Backup and reformat. Piece of cake, right? Wrong. It would not do that. I could not boot, save files, anything. After much weeping and gnashing of teeth, I had to bite the bullet and reformat....and lose everything on my puter. My baseball game progress, my pics, and most importantly, a bunch of pics when Jake was a baby. Granted we have some regular pics, but we had a ton of digital.

Talk about feeling stupid. And I KNOW better. Uggghh. Live and learn? God, I hope so.

I'm kinda bored.....

....with SL in a some ways. I still go to my AA meetings and I still do my DJing. I still like to hang out with my friends, but I'm very rarely on SL during the day anymore. I've been trying to take care of some things in RL that need attending to. I've had somewhat of a re-invigoration of my spirituality which is a very good thing. Much seems to be turning around in my life right now....granted, I need to put in some effort here. And I am doing that. :-)

I've decided to hold on to Aeryn's shop for a month or so until I get time to revamp it. In the winter, when yardwork goes into hibernation, I will have more time and will revisit the Shape thing.

I have a lot of things going through my head right now. A few posts ago, I talked about how I would like to use SL to bring to my RL some positive changes and how I would go about that. I've since been pointed in the direction of The Secret and then What The Bleep Do We Know. Both movies tell us we create our own reality. This also coincides with my love of the writers Deepak Chopra and Neale Donald Walsch (Conversations With God.) I also had a flash of insight that I should be following a program set forth in the book, The Life We Are Given, which is written by George Leonard and Michael Murphy, both founding members of The Institute Of Noetic Sciences. The IONS, by the way, has a workbook online in PDF format for What The Bleep Do We Know? Hmmmmmmm....I love synchronicity, don't you?

So, I'm trying to integrate all this in to my life right now. Watching the movies is easy and inspirational, but that is just a start. In the book I listed, Murphy and Leonard talk about how sustained practice and work is what moves us forward in our lives. In Zen, that is why meditation is referred to as Practice. We're never done, we just keep practicing. When the student has an amazing revelation, the Zen Master smiles and tells him to go practice some more...just sit. That being said, I've started meditating again and am dabbling in a bit of Yoga.....and hope to expand that. I'm so tight....that stretching hurts!! :-)

I know that there is not much SL in this post from a SL blog, but I don't have much SL to post about right now. I'm feeling inspired about other things at the moment, but I'm guessing that will inspire me in SL, too. In fact, I'm quite sure of it. I feel more centered and more balanced, which is making my SL more enjoyable right now. This is a good thing. Now, let's see if I can keep it up! Let me rephrase that.....I CHOOSE to keep this course up. Number One....Engage!!

What The Bleep Do We Know?

Not very much.....although we pretend to know more...lol. This is the trailer from the movie, What The Bleep Do We Know. If you would like to challenge your belief in what reality is, give this movie a shot. Keep and open mind and see what happens.

:-)

Hmmm....a Cancer?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

It's about time.....

....that I read this again, and take it to heart.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” -- Marianne Williamson

I love this quote and have for a very long time. It hits right at the heart of my lack of self esteem and self worth. It calls me to greatness....to create and to go beyond my small-mindedness. It tells me to get up off my ass and be who I know I can be. I find it easier to be that person in Second Life....lol.

Lots of good changes in my life right now, thanks to synchronicity and and that crazy spiritual stuff, I'm getting back in contact with my Self. That's a good thing by the way!

Not enough time in the day....

....to do what I want AND what I need. I've been trying to get Aeryn's shape shop off the ground for awhile. I put some time in to getting the shop up and a few shapes in it, but I've come to the realization that I just can't do it right now. I'm supposed to be ready to do a showcase next week and I just can't do it, not with everything to do around the house and with Jake starting school and my other obligations in SL at this time. As far as SL goes, my music does come first, because that is what I love doing.

So, I guess I'll keep the shop up until the rent runs out....I still have a couple weeks to change my mind.

We'll see.....

Car trouble and computer trouble.....

.....are two kinds of trouble that really bring out the worst in me. Frustrating for two different reasons. Auto troubles mean money....money I usually don't have.

Computer troubles just irritate me as inconvenience. I haven't been able to DJ for the last two days because our ISP is having trouble in our area. Apparently they have to switch out a piece of equipment, which they may have done last night. Hopefully it will be taken care of soon, but I'm enjoying my break, too. Vacations are a good thing, even in SL.

:-)