Monday, February 4, 2008

Enjoying the beauty of life.....



Sometimes I really need to stop and really look at my life objectively. And I do mean RL and SL, as they are intertwined so deeply these days. It's easy to get caught up in what I think is wrong. It's easy to judge someone else who is acting like a twit or a child. And, that does me no good. I come back to myself and what is important. I stop and pet my dog, or kiss my son and/or wife....I hug a friend. I stop and watch the sun rise and just breathe. Or maybe I just breathe.....

That heaven that I so desperately long for is always right here, in my heart. It's doesn't happen after I die....why wait until then for happiness....one of the big lies of religion. Just breathe.....

It's so sad to watch someone else self-destruct and try to destroy others. It's sad to watch someone refer to other human beings as cancer. I understand how easy it is to demonize another human being. It makes it easy for us to justify anything that we do. Since they are evil, we can do what we want. In RL we kill them, in SL we orbit them. They have nothing to offer us, so we discard them. I'm glad that I can see in myself what I hate in others and work on that rather than pretending that I'm better than you are. Because I am not. I'm just another child on the bus. But there comes a time when I have to realize that this is not my problem anymore and all I can do is be the best person I can be. And just breathe.......

I"m glad I have the friends I do have today. I am glad I do not have any enemies...no one to discard or throw away. I'm glad that I have the ability to be able to approach someone I have wronged and make amends for what I have done wrong. And I'm glad that I can forgive those who have hurt me, without asking for anything in return. As my second sponsor used to say, "Forgiveness is for giving." Give it away...free of charge. Please. It's not for them, it's for us.

For you, my friends, I love you all. I really do. I'm talking Second Life now, of course. You have made my life richer and more full. For those of you who would like me to fail, to hurt....I love you to and wish you the best. We're not so much different as we would like to think we are.

Just breathe......

6 comments:

Joonie said...

Love you, Crighton. *hugs*

Love this post. It reminds me of where I used to be and where I hope to be again. Thanks for the mini-meeting.

Glad to see you are in a good place. Makes me very happy :)

JJ

Crighton Johin said...

Well...I don't know if I would go so far as to say I'm in a good place, but I could be worse off. At least I know where I am and where I want to go....lol. Thanks for commenting Joonie. *big hugs*

Kimala said...

Ok Mr. Glass Half Empty... /me shakes her head. Could be worse off? /me pinches you and says... Glass Half Full :)

Joonie said...

Thank you, Kimala! Geeez! ;-)

Crighton Johin said...

Okay ladies.....half full, alright?

Geeesh!!!

Love you both, you silly girls. Life is good.

:-)

Me said...

Did you just get beat up by two..girls?

/me shakes her head and skitters off.